Wow.

Simply. Wow.

I mean, it has been a long time since I last updated my LJ. I open my account, yes, to view friends' updates and all but I never really got to post an update myself. I don't know if it's out of laziness, out of time or just plain not-bothered-to-update-cuz-there's-nothing-good-to-write.

Since I have decided to update my journal, it means that something must have happened right?

Well, aside from the everyday work routine that I have gotten myself into, there's actually some good and bad news that sprouted in my life.

Good news: MY APPLICATION FOR A SECOND UNDERGRADUATE DEGREE IS BEING ENDORSED.

Yes, I applied for BS Applied Physics as my second undergrad degree. I went to my interview last Thursday and Sir Lou and Sir Sison were the ones who interviewed me.

It was a fun experience and honestly, I have never been so excited in my life. (Well, maybe I have already forgotten the feeling of such excitement that it makes me think that this is a first.) Dr. Sison was saying that my case is going to be a story to tell because no one, in the history of IMSP, at least, has ever taken a BA and a BS. And that no one has taken a second undergrad degree for 3-4 years. It's amazing, actually, and I am really excited.

Bad news: I don't know where to get 16k for my tuition in June and I don't know how to earn money while studying earnestly.

I'm ready to face the hardships as a working student; but, there's no security in it. It's going to be a tough road and it's hard to find a scholarship.

That's all.

It's been a while since I actually last posted anything here in my blog.

Well, to be honest, a lot of things happened. Failed exams and interviews for job applications and such....

BUT, finally, through God's grace, I already landed a job. :)

I have been through a lot -- frustrations, boredom, insecurity -- but in the end, His plans prevails and slowly unravels itself.

I hope to learn a lot and experience growth in my new job. :) 

 

This warm fuzzy feeling
This whirlpool of happiness
They come to overcome my heart
With every thought of you
Your smile that gives warmth to the cold day
Your gaze that makes my cheeks red
Your mere presence that makes my heart
Sing in happiness

I want to collect each minute
Every second that I spend with you
I want to treasure them, to remember them
Like collecting rainbows to color my days

If possible, these feelings I hold inside
Will shine and color your days too
If possible, the song of my heart,
You'll be able to listen to it

It's annoying, you know
When I find myself doing nothing
But just think of you
Or how I try to remember
How you spoke
How you smiled
And that spring-filled scent of yours

It's scary, you know
Will my feelings
Be able to color your days?
Do you feel
The same happiness that I feel?
Do you sometimes
Think of me as well?

This warm fuzzy feeling
This whirlpool of happiness
They come to overcome my heart
Your smile that gives warmth to the cold days
Your gaze that makes my cheeks red
Your mere presence that makes my heart
Sing in happiness

I want to cherish every minute
Every second that I get to see you
Every second that I get to spend with you
I want to treasure them, I want to remember them
Like collecting rainbows to color my days 

I'm scared
But still
i want these feelings 
To be able to color both our days
To be able to smile back at you
And make you happy as well
And make your heart
Sing in happiness

[Finished in 20 minutes.] 

A passing wind blew the warmth away
A leaf tried to follow it but fell anyway
Just like that
All hope of moving forward seemed to disappear
Ah, the raindrops started dancing on the ground

The warmth within me, slowly
It slowly faded into nothingness
Even hope itself seemed to freeze in time
The tiny light in my spirit
flickered in fear of dying down

I lied on the cold puddle of water
My skin, soaked in sorrow
shivered under the touch of the raindrops
Ah, I guess I can still feel
Even if my heart is drenched in gray rainbows

The clouds seemed to frown against me
It continued to cry for that little leaf
Where was it again?
I've lost track of everything
even time
Somehow, that little flame inside of me
froze unknowingly

I closed my eyes under the rain
What's the point of looking
when your eyes are filled with rain anyway

Maybe a storm came
I am unaware
But a storm formed somewhere else
That, I am sure

I wonder, when will the cold ice inside me
start becoming warm and eventually, melt?
I do not know if I'm shivering still
From within, I cannot feel anything anymore
Ah, I want to see the blue sky again

I tilted my head to the side
Opened my eyes a little
And, moved my lips a bit

That little leaf is moving still

 
Finally, the last chapter of Hagane no Renkinjutsushi was released.

I knew that this manga was one of the best ever written in the entire manga history.

I totally appreciate how it was written with wit and logic and values. I totally have no regrets in reading this series and I totally have nothing to say about it other than it was really really well-written.

Now, I think, it is time for me to watch it too. *cries*

I'm gonna miss waiting for this manga. :(

Because I forgot a certain someone's birthday.. here's to you.



Happy birthday to you you
Here's a birthday song for you, okay?

At first, when I see you cry

I say a little prayer for you

Life's a candy and the sun's a ball of butter

Hope things will go well from now on

You can't always get what you want
But if you try sometimes
You'll find
You get what you need

Everybody wants a thrill
Paying anything to roll the dice
Just one more time
Some will win, some will lose

Things which you just got to do
Be it accomplishing them or it not going smoothly
Even when you're feeling down
Baby nevermind, never say die

Don't stop believing
Hold on to that feeling

You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

Just call on me, brother, when you need a friend
When you need somebody to lean on

I see your true colors shining through
so don't be afraid to let them show your true colors


---

Yes, they are all lyrics from different songs. xD"

I have been sitting at home almost everyday all day long and due to that I believe I have realized something important. I believe I have neglected this for quite a long time.

I dare you to move.

Every minute of every day that I spend my time just sitting and say that I'm bored and I've got nothing to do is time wasted. I believe that time should not be wasted by saying whims; instead, it should be used to move yourself and to move other people. To set emotions running. To inspire people. To contribute to the world. To be stronger and to be more knowledgeable each day.

Being unemployed is never an excuse.

Being too busy is never an excuse.

Being at a time of rest is never an excuse.

We should all go out of our comfort zones and do something.

Make a change.

Move the world.

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, Songbird, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag AT LEAST 10 friends.
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing. If you want to do it, go ahead XD
6. Have Fun!

tagged by : fanplastico 

IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
Brand New Ancient - UVERworld XD"

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
LIFE - Arashi ... o.o'

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Tell Me - OLIVIA ( HAHA! )

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Bach & Break ( oh yeah. xD )

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
If I Was Your Woman ( Walk on By ) ( O.O' )

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
Empty96 .... ( OMG! EGGY! I REMEMBERED SOMETHING )

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Sparta - UVERworld ... >>' Rly?

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Tsuki ( Moon ) - ELLEGARDEN ..... (I glow in the dark?)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
U Know What's Up ( hahahaha )

WHAT IS 2+2?
Kanashimi Wa Kitto (Piano Ver.) LOL

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Pocket - Ai Otsuka ...... No, my best friend is not a pocket. XD

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Track23 (Diamond Dust Rebellion Soundtrack) >>'

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Where Do We Go From Here - Alicia Keys ( Seriously, I still don't know. XD )

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Piano Concerto No. 1 in F-sharp Minoc, Op. 1 Mvmt. 1 Vivace ( ERRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.....)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
SHAKA BEACH (LAKA LAKA LA) - UVERworld ...... ( NOW WHO'S HAVING FUN?!?!)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Dancing in a Circle - ELLEGARDEN ( I swear I'm not crazy!)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
New World ( XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD Sorry Jasmine and Aladdin )

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Walking in the Rain - Arashi

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Road ( NO REALLY I WANT A PROPERTY BIG ENOUGH TO HAVE ROADS! XDDD )

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Understand - YUI

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS
Shi Jie De Mi Mi - Liu Yi Fei ( LOL )

I'm tagging everyone who's bored

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, Songbird, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag AT LEAST 10 friends.
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing. If you want to do it, go ahead XD
6. Have Fun!


IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
Namidairo (o.o')

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
All I Want ( HAHAHAHAHA )

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Get Back (huh? o.O)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Your Winter (seriously.. I felt like Roasted Human)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Blue (at least, not purple)

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
Oudanhodou wo Wataru Hitotachi / People Crossing the Crosswalk

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
いい女 ( HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA )

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Sliding Door (I don't look like a door. I swear!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Listen to One Story

WHAT IS 2+2?
Rock In Japan Festival 2009 (YUI)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Wish - live - (btw, this is OLIVIA's)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Take Me Faraway ( ROFL)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Puri Gorota Theme ( ROLFMAOLOLOLOLOLOLOL )

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Kingyo Hanabi :)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Kaze no Mukuo e

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Konoyo no Uta

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
明日があるさ

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Kiss & Tell :P

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Cry for You ( OH REALLY )

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Guitar Test ( HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA )

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS
just Melody ;)

TAGGING : chesuto , yamahaki_toot , nyaaawn , eggy_egg , fanplastico